In the stillness....

I've been thinkin a tad bit lately...

If Im doing wats right....

Chasing after materialistic things at the cost of things I hold dear....

For example, I dont hang out with my friends as often as I did before...

as a result...much has happened that Im oblivious to it

I feel like I've neglected alot of ppl that are important to me

On another note,

I feel like my life is no longer like a jellyfish floating around as the waves go by...

Now its like Im on a bullet express train rushing from one stop to another...

Looking at other stuff,

Thruout my life I've learn to let go and I always have

& by far things has always turned out for the better

or prolly cz I dont know the alternate ending

& now....I really dont know what to do

cz Im unable to let go or just let it slip by

Im not 1 person who falls head over heels

By far it has only happened twice...

Live as it goes by? Let it go? or remain patiently persistent...

Guess I dont like getting hurt....

Maybe thats y I rarely risk myself....

But this somehow seems worth it...

Rummaging Thru...

I feel like my walk has been slowly headin towards a downhill

I know I gotta pick myself up

But I cant seem to find the strength...

When will I learn to just....

Fall back and know that God would be there to hold my back up...

Ishh isshh...

In the stillness of the night I seem to see myself at its core

No masks no fades nothing

Times like these rarely do happen

Hence Im vexed at what to do with what seems insurmountable to me but

Eternally grateful for all the good that has happened

So I tell myself, never fret, never fear

The Lord yr God

Is for You and with You

Let nothing cause fear in your heart

Let nothing cause you to take your eyes off him

Never has He let you down

Even when hope seems frail

So lay your head, rest in peace and

Surrender it all to Him...

In the stillness God works his plan not to harm but to prosper You

taggity tagg tagged

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 16 random things, facts, habits or goals about you. At the end choose 16 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, its because I want to know more about you.

1. My mom has got to be the most annoying mom on earth....annoying cz she learns how i annoy her and she annoys me back the same way....and no she is not cool

2. As much as the tranny says Im gay....Im not....And as much as i call her a tranny she's actually very much anatomically a girl!! just anatomically....

3. I wanna freaking start my own business & be a millionaire before i go bald!

4. I think Tatty Teddies are awesomely cute....

5. I love my sister lots!!!

6. very much bad-tempered but I like covering it with a smile

7. silly little things annoy me to no end....like ppl standing as if they've got no spine.etc...etc

8. silly little things amuses me....like watchin my hamsters run on their wheel...etc..etc

9.silly little things make me feel warm and fuzzy...like a small note torn from a corner of a full scap paper and on it says "Smile =) ppllleeeaaasseee" etc...etc....

10. silly little things make me laugh like no 2moro....like...most recently..DRAGOONNN BAALLL FUUSSEEE!!!!! hahahahaha shitt I still laugh whn I think about it....dam the tranny....

11. Yes Im pretty free at work now cz Im superbly leet! and awesome that I've finished today's work... yesterday! =)

12. the expression *rawr* and ~huuuu~ are currently my favs.

13. I think feminism is a bunch of bull crap that was derived from Nazism thus should be impaled on a stake and set on fire only after being used as a toilet paper to wipe my ass with after i poo.. =)

14. Having said tht....I believe that females can do what males can....so go do manual labor dammit!! like lift bricks and build houses....lol....no but seriously...Im all about gender equality...like the most I think is that ppl should not descriminate based on gender...but based on stupidity and ignorance....

15. December 1987 is the day that I was born LOLz

16. It took me 3 hours to do this cz Im really taking my time xD

Tagg....

err...whoever reads this! so just freakin do it! lol

Whreeeeeeeee!

i now remember why I just stick to reading a couple of blogs and not blog hop around >.<

cz some blogs make me go 

some make me go 

and SOME really make me go!

(for those who read my blog and would really appreciate censorship)

(this pic's for u....+ its really cute toO! xD)

Hence would make me instinctively reach a conclusion of

However there are blogs that make me go

Some make me

And I really like those blogs.... =D

and for those of u....who actually bothered reading the entire post....

yea...I just wanted to show off my HP wallpapers xD!!!

so bite me =p and feel free to loot them pics...

cz really I have

just a thought

I wonder....

what it was like to be a kid....

geez....dam im getting old....and i just turn 21 a month ago...

*rawr* neways geting trip was good...

will post pics as soon as im not feeling too tired

*curls up in chair back to work*

1 more hour to go and i've got a jam to face...rah!

tu la la la

I know I have no rights to this

but really....the thing I love most about humans.....is how they begin contradicting themselves whenever they get angry or upset...

take this bloke for example

" I will live the Life Christ has called me to live.............Dad if you read this. JUST FOR ONCE STOP THINKING OF YOUR IMAGE AND LOOK AT HOME/YOUR FAMILY. TO ME it doesn't exist."

Im confused really.....how do u live the life christ has called and not honor your father....@.@ 

sorry if i come off as dissing other ppl's problems....I rarely get irritated bt there are just a couple of small lil things that irritate me to no end....this is just one of it...

Jesus I love you..but fuck u dad...lol...

like I say at least I admit I'm no saint....

ppl should take a minute to ponder on what they say.... (-.-)

whoever it is.....there are a whole lot of people in deeper levels of shit...so stop whining....

like srsly...

but oh well....whoever he/she is....I hope he/she is gonna sort it out in his/her life....

Good luck with it

*rawrrss*

hahahah Nana said the funniest thing to me at work right just now 

NaNa says:

done everything?

alex says:

erm...so far yaa....eka's part and my part of the business categories

NaNa says:

wow good job

NaNa says:

now u chill

NaNa says:

hehehe if anything  i will tell u k

hahahaha hmm...this is the first time some1 told me to chill lol!

does tht mean I'm not chilling at work?

I wonder if that a good thing xD

3 - 0

ok so Im a lil late but still....

Can u say...raped!

ManU 3 - 0 Chelsea

lol...

shniffless ~huuuu

a new type-on expression I've come to like...taught to me by d hamster...

its ~huuuu~ 

and tht is exactly the way Im feeling right now

Also Im so missing this....

This is Alex....He likes to Chill

but chilling hasnt been coming around alot lately

wakaka at least I can say I'm a tad bit richer along with a rm20 starbucks voucher...anyone? =)

Im so lookin forward to this weekend... *shrieks!*

6.30pm

still in d office....

i just realize....I'll b workin 7 days this week

hahaha and it takes 1 idiot on msn to remind me of the many stupid things I've said in highschool

to brighten up my err..evening

lol...

"come at me...i dare you" lol

of all the cool lines i cud have said in tht moronic situation....tht was the best i cud come up with lolol (-.-)

rah....not lookin forward to the train trip back home...ne1 wanna fetch me?

please?

i'll be really nice....

honest....

iPod --> Music ---> Playlist ---> Zoning...out....

alright...trip back home....rawrr!

hahahahaha

OMG this has got to be the best news since the start of 2009

Minister in the Prime Minister’s Department Datuk Seri Dr Zahid Hamidi concured with the proposal by Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad that Muslim countries boycott US-made goods in protest against the attacks on Palestinians. [The Star, 5/1/09]

hahaha ok look Im not in to killing innocent ppl...be it jew, arab, whomever whatever

but seriously.....boycotting the US has got to be one the dumbest idea I've heard....

omg....with the amount of jokers running this country....I bet I'll make a perfect Prime Minister....

so ok fine...boycott US products...

send ALL our airplanes back to the US and cease anymore purchase of commercial aircraft...

cz almost 90% of MAS, AirAsia etc.etc are Boeing...and Boeing...is an American company....

ask Mc.Donald's, Pizza Hut, KFC, and other American food chain outlets...to pull out of Malaysia...

on top of that get rid of all American cigs....lol 

kick out all US brands....

chances are....

u'll see the unemployment rate soar to the sky....

riots all over the place....

malaysian's hurting malaysians

social instability..

our economy plummel further in to recession..

and really....all for the sake of the people in another country

call me selfish...but wudnt u rather the country u live in enjoy peace stability and harmony?

than trade all that.....for the sake of a country....we dont even do business with....  -.-

omg....if i were to receive 10cents for every stupid thing said, done, or proposed by our government....

I be a fuckin millionaire by now....

so let me say this clearly...

I dont care....

if Isrealies die

or Palestinians die

I just want to be able to walk on the streets of my own country and know thr isnt a fuckin riot going on somewhere, 

or someone wanting to rob me cz his AMERICAN company had to pack up and leave back to the states cz  the Malaysian ppl and the government had boycott their products to a point they see no interest in staying...

lol

think la u stupid bunch of fucktards before you go on national tv and propose something as dumbassed as that....

cz really....r u ppl gonna tell me that Zahid Hamidi just realllyyy has an aching hearrtt for the poor and and dying in the war torn country of Palestine.....I bet u RM10 that he has a Polo Ralph Lauren back home in his closet....and at least a pair of NIKE shoes.....lol stupid fuckers really shud just stay at home and shit.

whoa....

Well...im late for both the last 08 post and first 09 post...well bite me =p

To sum it up....2008....was 1 year....

I

had to grow out of my comfortable nice comfy lazy ass sofa

Ventured in to many different things with gunz blazing

Scared the living daylight out of myself...

Felt failure...again.... =)

Felt Loved.. =)

sorted out a couple of things in my life....(even my room! huuraaah!)

got rid of my egotistical nature...(well maybe not all of it xD)

begins to take on (ugh...) resposibility

realize the reality that I can no longer not take responsibility for my actions

realize that I am in need of an accomplisment

almost fell in to a toilet hole

had ppl come to me in Genting asking me if I wanted hookers -.-

turned 21...almost died.... @.@

won RM50 with RM10 but did not cash out quick enough -.-

realize I'm not self-driven

realize that I have the support of alot of ppl around me

Found myself....

Work in progress to better myself...

realized that there is more to me than I taught there was.

Eventually reached

a simple and logical conclusion....

I am no longer a boy...there's no such thing as a Peter Pan Theory...I have to be a man...

Thus 2009 I

will trust God

will believe in myself

will be self-driven

will not let myself be treated like a kid

will chase my dreams and grab hold of it

will take life seriously

will no longer fail myself and others

will succeed

will not give in to fear or uncertainty

will work as hard as I can to fufill my promises

Cheers to 2009! Just Bring It